WHATS IN MY BAG?

Recently my bag seems to be getting heavier and heavier and turning into a baby bag instead of my personal hand bag. The babies have their own bag but I just find it so much easier to just throw thing in my bag and go. Now days I only take the babies bag if I am going to be out for a while which means I need the milk stuff which cant fit in my bag nor do I want them in my bag lol.

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I am going to let you into my bag and some of the things lurking in there. Firstly I have to have pampers and wipes because I can not afford to leave my house without them, I also carry the dummy container ( the one with the green cover) which I sometimes put some hot water just to keep them sterile. I also carry my note book all the time which I use a lot as when ever I have an idea for the blog or vlog I am able to quickly write it down before I forget. I also have my vlogging camera which I need to replace as this one has little space and the footage is not that good, a magazine is also needed as I need to keep up with whats going on in pop culture and fashion.

My make up bag which I have been using so much recently because am starting to enjoy dolling myself up. I get periods where I just cant be asked to plaster my face as it means I cant touch my face really and with the twins I feel I am forever trying to avoid or stop them from touching my face or it will end up on them but mummy has to stay on flick and presentable so we make it work lol.

I have quite a few thing in there but am sure you don’t want to hear all that’s in my bag but those are a few of the things in there and am sure I will be adding more lol.

Love Me x

“MOTHERHOOD IS UNSELFISHNESS”

So am sat here at 1.30 at night I should be sleeping but just had a bath and hubby is getting me a cuppa before I go bed and the twins moved and just turned and looked at them for a while and I felt a sense of amazement, joy, grateful all types of emotions.

For me to have 4 babies better yet carry twins! is just something I never thought I could do or manage. Being able to carry twins is only possible by Gods grace because humans are not meant to carry more than one baby at a time, its not how our bodies were made.

I used to see parents with 4 or more children and I would wonder how they manage with all those children but I have found out that its doable and manageable and its beautiful.

So to all mothers out there, honey you are an amazing super woman!

Love Me x

“IT ALWAYS SEEMS IMPOSSIBLE UNTIL ITS DONE” Nelson Mandela

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So lately I have been feeling some type of way, actually tell a lie lol this feeling has been with me for a hot minute. I have been vlogging my lifestyle coming to 3 years now and i feel I am in limbo sometimes. In the beginning I used to upload every week then I went up to twice a week and now since I had the twins I have not followed a set schedule because with new borns you can’t plan too much and when you do things don’t go to plan so I tend to upload whenever I get time to edit and do some work. Recently the channel has hit 102 subscribers which am grateful for but I feel like my channel is just stuck in one place and not going anywhere which demotivates me. We all have targets we want to achieve in life and I wanted my channel to be a bit more further along than where it is now.

Being that am a stay at home mum I thought this would have been a good way to make a little income ( which is not going as planned lol) as well as preserve some memories of our family life.

I feel like am doing something wrong or am not providing the right content which make me feel like vlogging is not for me. I watch a few lifestyle vloggers whose vlogs are on the same wave length as mine and their channels are doing brilliant and mine is just mehn. Some of them started the same time as me and some after me so its not like they have been doing it for 10 years and me 3.

I even sometimes think maybe its the camera am using which is a bit ridiculous or the editing software, though with the software( I use Adobe premiere elements) I find that most people use the Apple laptop editing one which seems way better than Adobe.

So please go watch a few of my vlogs and leave me some feedback below as to how I can improve and make the channel better and successful because at this point am at a lost end. I enjoy doing vlogs and I would like to continue doing them to share how my small world lives and goes through life’s ups and downs.

I look forwards to receiving your feedback.

Love Me X

NEW ADDITION

I would like to introduce our new bundles of joy, Mr Uriyah and Miss Bella born 7 weeks ago.

What a WOW!these last 7 weeks have been I still cant believe I carried twins and have twins! They are such a blessing. The delivery was full of heartache, happiness, sadness, tears….. I made a vlog about the delivery so go check it out as i will be here forever if I try to type it out lol. (Link 👉 https://youtu.be/U4I6uno8R5w) but that’s what I have been doing the last 7 weeks, taking care of these babas and trying to get in some kind of routine. I am also back to doing school runs which I was scared of doing as I was afraid the twins would end up both crying and I would not be able to soothe them (which they have done a couple of times lol) but l was able to handle it! 💪😏

Dont forget to check out the vlogs and follow us on our social medias to keep up to date with us.

Love Me X

GRADUATION PARTY

So I danced till my feet hurt but I refused to stop lol, by the time I got home and took off my shoes,boy oh boy the pain my toes were going through was a lot lol but they have recovered. Anyway guys the graduation party vlog is up so go check it out and thank you for all the support.

Love Me X

 

I GRADUATED!!!!!!!

Hey loves hope you are all well. So last week Tuesday 11th I graduated from university with Honours!!!! like what???!!!, I never thought I would get there or that I could do it. I had to redo 3 assignments!! in about a month!. So when I found out I had to redo 3 assignments which included my dissertation, I honestly could not take it anymore, my energy levels were so low as well as my motivation levels. I cried then I got angry not at me but at the tutors because they checked the assignment prier to hand in date and they gave them the go ahead not to fail I was just gobsmacked. I gave and said I don’t care anymore I do not want to graduate…….. the usual reactions when you have given all you can and its still not good enough.

But after talking to my family and friends and sleeping on it I decided to push myself and get my degree because if I didn’t I would have wasted 3 years for what? and I had to show my babies that no matter the obstacles you can still do it. So I put my head down and got them done and handed in before my family holiday to Uganda. When we came back it was back to reality to find out the results of my resits. I passed all of them being that they are resits they are capped at 40%  but with my dissertation they gave me 42%! I could not believe it, after ll the changes they told me to make (which I made for the resit) they still gave me 42% which left me so scared and stressed because it had to go to moderation for the final marks. So I prayed and left it in Gods hands.

Thankfully they did not put my marks down ( if they did I would have failed again and had to redo a whole year!!) and I graduated with a third Honours!!!!

 

I am still processing it how I done it and got through it. Being a mother it was really difficult finding time to study and do the assignments but I was able to organise myself and with the help of my hubby we got there. Its been  crazy and manic but I am glad I did it and on the way I made some lovely friends who together helped each other through it all.

Moral of the story, if you work hard enough for something,you will almost certainly get there.

Love Me X