“IT ALWAYS SEEMS IMPOSSIBLE UNTIL ITS DONE” Nelson Mandela

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So lately I have been feeling some type of way, actually tell a lie lol this feeling has been with me for a hot minute. I have been vlogging my lifestyle coming to 3 years now and i feel I am in limbo sometimes. In the beginning I used to upload every week then I went up to twice a week and now since I had the twins I have not followed a set schedule because with new borns you can’t plan too much and when you do things don’t go to plan so I tend to upload whenever I get time to edit and do some work. Recently the channel has hit 102 subscribers which am grateful for but I feel like my channel is just stuck in one place and not going anywhere which demotivates me. We all have targets we want to achieve in life and I wanted my channel to be a bit more further along than where it is now.

Being that am a stay at home mum I thought this would have been a good way to make a little income ( which is not going as planned lol) as well as preserve some memories of our family life.

I feel like am doing something wrong or am not providing the right content which make me feel like vlogging is not for me. I watch a few lifestyle vloggers whose vlogs are on the same wave length as mine and their channels are doing brilliant and mine is just mehn. Some of them started the same time as me and some after me so its not like they have been doing it for 10 years and me 3.

I even sometimes think maybe its the camera am using which is a bit ridiculous or the editing software, though with the software( I use Adobe premiere elements) I find that most people use the Apple laptop editing one which seems way better than Adobe.

So please go watch a few of my vlogs and leave me some feedback below as to how I can improve and make the channel better and successful because at this point am at a lost end. I enjoy doing vlogs and I would like to continue doing them to share how my small world lives and goes through life’s ups and downs.

I look forwards to receiving your feedback.

Love Me X

ASTHMA!

Good morning guys hope you are all having a brill start to Monday. Those who watch my vlogs and read my blogs know that my son had some breathing difficulties a few weeks ago and I had to take him to hospital. So following the hospital visit I had to take him to the doctors to do a follow up and they gave him a pick flow ( to check how strong his breathing is) and pump if his breathing plays up again and we were told that he should use this for the next two weeks and to write down the results of the before and after of using the pick flow and pump.

We did this for two weeks and took the results back to the doctors and today I got a call form the doctors saying he has Asthma!! I was like what? how? out of the blue?. Its something I did not think would come out of the results as his been fine since the hospital visit and he had a football match this Saturday gone and he was fine.

So now I have to tell him and explain to him what that means and to make sure he don’t panic about it because when he had the first breathing issue I think he began to panic ( which is understandable) that he could not breath but h was fine. I have read up on Asthma and apparently some kids grow out of it and I hope he does too.

Moral of the story, parenthood can be scary! and difficult but our parents done it in harder timeS so with a strong support system, we can do it too.

Love Me X

GRADUATION PARTY

So I danced till my feet hurt but I refused to stop lol, by the time I got home and took off my shoes,boy oh boy the pain my toes were going through was a lot lol but they have recovered. Anyway guys the graduation party vlog is up so go check it out and thank you for all the support.

Love Me X

 

I GRADUATED!!!!!!!

Hey loves hope you are all well. So last week Tuesday 11th I graduated from university with Honours!!!! like what???!!!, I never thought I would get there or that I could do it. I had to redo 3 assignments!! in about a month!. So when I found out I had to redo 3 assignments which included my dissertation, I honestly could not take it anymore, my energy levels were so low as well as my motivation levels. I cried then I got angry not at me but at the tutors because they checked the assignment prier to hand in date and they gave them the go ahead not to fail I was just gobsmacked. I gave and said I don’t care anymore I do not want to graduate…….. the usual reactions when you have given all you can and its still not good enough.

But after talking to my family and friends and sleeping on it I decided to push myself and get my degree because if I didn’t I would have wasted 3 years for what? and I had to show my babies that no matter the obstacles you can still do it. So I put my head down and got them done and handed in before my family holiday to Uganda. When we came back it was back to reality to find out the results of my resits. I passed all of them being that they are resits they are capped at 40%  but with my dissertation they gave me 42%! I could not believe it, after ll the changes they told me to make (which I made for the resit) they still gave me 42% which left me so scared and stressed because it had to go to moderation for the final marks. So I prayed and left it in Gods hands.

Thankfully they did not put my marks down ( if they did I would have failed again and had to redo a whole year!!) and I graduated with a third Honours!!!!

 

I am still processing it how I done it and got through it. Being a mother it was really difficult finding time to study and do the assignments but I was able to organise myself and with the help of my hubby we got there. Its been  crazy and manic but I am glad I did it and on the way I made some lovely friends who together helped each other through it all.

Moral of the story, if you work hard enough for something,you will almost certainly get there.

Love Me X